Dear Diary, you have been with me every step of the year, always available with prepped pages of lined A5 paper. It is thanks to you, you have cast no judgement but given me space to free my mind. Every feeling I feel throughout each…
Today has been an emotional day. I ended up sitting in my friends bathroom crying this evening, but I am fine now after talking to my sister in Berlin on the phone, she is my heroine. My brain cannot seem to function right now as I truly madly deeply miss my siblings who are across Europe and one in New Zealand for Christmas. I fear I may get emotional again, so I will just leave you with Christmassy pics of myself in a festive red dress. And I will gladly share with you a heartfelt post sometime very soon. God bless you all and Merry Christmas.
Here is a Christmassy poem I found from Anne Brontë, enjoy
‘Music on Christmas morning’
Music I love - but never strain
Could kindle raptures so divine,
So grief assuage, so conquer pain,
And rouse this pensive heart of mine -
As that we hear on Christmas morn,
Upon the wintry breezes borne.
Though Darkness still her empire keep,
And hours must pass, ere morning break;
From troubled dreams, or slumbers deep,
That music kindly bids us wake:
It calls us, with an angel’s voice,
To wake, and worship, and rejoice;
By Anne Brontë
An act of kindness, a word spoken with love
A feeling of bliss sparks off joy
Inside the comfort of my heart and yours
Spread a little bit of warmth to those who need it most
Tis the season to be filled with happiness
And delight in the company of our nearest and dearest
Speak of kindness
Act with care
Smile liberally to the sound of Christmas
In the air
Gratitude for the days this year has given me
The sad, the bitter, the sour, the sweet,
The happy, the funny, the crazy, the weird
Makes each step of the journey
Feel worthy
However many steps trodden with my feet
My blessed feet
Time of year is coming to an end,
Think of the encounters made,
From a new friend
To another
Bless the love between your father,
Your mother, your sister, your brother
Rid of feelings of envy, jealousy, and hatred
Prepare anew for a fresh new page
There is a cloud with a silver lining
And a chapter unknown, waiting to be discovered
Rage the stage with a bubbling fire inside you
To get what you want and live to aspire
Inspire and shimmer your days with the light He gives you
Allowing you to see the beauty all around thee
Christmas time is here,
Cherish each mince pie,
And let every moment be as magical as you want it to be
God bless you all.
Love, Miranda
Sometimes in my day to day life, i grumble and I sigh and mutter under my breath questions as to why things are the way they are. It’s as though there is a long winding road I walk down upon and I can never arrive at my destination. I find myself taking a Uturn, a left turn , a wrong turn that leads to a dead end, so I’m taking the long route. The slower route. But i believe , I so believe every choice you make in life, the decisions you face and the effort you put in to your everyday schedule is part of the whole journey, however long it takes. A journey one cannot escape from but live with the heart to embrace whatever they encounter in the adventure of life’s unexpected surprises.
Where there is peace in yourself, you can walk gracefully into a new day knowing everything will be okay.
Recently, I had a little panic moment, where a big mesh of emotions surfaced to the point I didn’t know how to articulate everything, and I felt burnt out from over thinking things, questioning things and constantly going round in circles, only to realise I harshly criticised everything , jump to crazy conclusions and put myself down. Do you experience these moments?
In the end, the air was clear through talking and hearing out someone who can understand. Afterwards, I felt better and by default I evaluate myself and how I can look beyond a negative cloud blinding my vision to what is true to me. I’m shifting my focus upon the good I have in life. What brings meaning to my life and how others have contributed to my day to day life in ways I cannot forget. Memories layered upon layers of memories threaded on a golden string creates a tapestry of colour and beauty, that is life.
When I walk into London to work, as I dodge my way past vast amounts of humans, each stride I take comes with a positive thought, driven by my will to seize the day and make it a day, as though a gift from Him upstairs, to feel open to obstacles that may be encountered, but above all immerse myself into bringing happiness into fruition, carrying the attitude all will be okay..all will be okay.
So all in all.. try to imagine you have a golden thread in your hand, and you take it wherever you go , each and every day this golden thread will trail behind you, at the end of this day you think of all the good things that have happened , however few or many, and attach them together by writing them down, sew them together with your imaginary golden thread and think how much beauty has come out of it all. You deserve to be happy. It just takes a lil bit of effort to spread a lil happiness, and it will come back to you. That is the beauty of life.
The time of year has come, for a load of fun as we share this precious month with our nearest and dearest. Spoil ourselves with the festive spirit showered across the world. We snuggle up to hot chocolate with marshmallows and devour bites into unlimited amounts of mince pies, warm and juicy, in the confines of our cosy front room watching Christmas movies, or tra la la la la laling to carol singers at our doorstep. However one chooses to spend their Christmas, it’s value is enhanced by the sentiment behind each and every generous act of kindness passed down from generation to generation throughout history.
When you see fairly lights all around you, your heart glows with happiness and that sparkle in your eye stays with you for the entire day. It’s warm lit bulbs, strung together lights up the city, and brightens up the atmosphere. It brings the little magic of Christmas so effortlessly, the endless sparkle of lights keeps you twinkling on your toes with excitement.
When you see shops, decorated with trees and Christmas decor, a little bit of my heart melts as my jaw drops at the sincere effort put into display for all to see and marvel at the sight of pure creativity. It makes the experience of shopping , however mad it may seem, worth it, for the surroundings are exquisite, and ever so magical, I pull out my camera and snappy happy.
If your a bit financially strained at Christmas time, do not fret, because I can guarantee you can still have a lovely experience marvelling at the interior of shops, and walk with a friend through the lovely alleyways of London. I find myself discovering places I’ve never been to and amazed by how lovely the area is. Going to a perfume shop and walking out smelling like flowers is the best feeling in the world, I highly recommend it to all! I can’t seem to stop sniffing at my wrists, I still smell like the peony perfume I sprayed on!
I love hot chocolate. And something about hot chocolate at Christmas time, makes that Christmas feeling inside grow bigger. A tasty hot chocolate I like to make is : If you happen to have ‘Options’ Belgian instant hot chocolate , put about 4 teaspoons in and mix with a lil hot water into a smooth paste and place a peppermint teabag inside, pour boiling hot water up to the rim of your cup, mix and leave the peppermint tea bag in for a few mins..then remove. Add marshmallows (if you like ) and enjoy. And omydays.. it is AMAZING. There’s something special about putting a fresh peppermint teabag in hot chocolate. Adds more depth of flavour … I like to think so anyways hehe… you can be the judge of that I guess 😉 Looking forward to posting to you all during this final month of 2019. Keep your sparkly eyes open.
Big love, Miranda x
Miranda meanders 