The core existence of me is deeply embedded beneath questions revolving around ‘who am I’, ‘what do I have to offer to society’ or ‘why is there so much pressure to succeed?’ The notion ‘we all have potential’ can be a tricky statement for me to digest, given the times we feel challenged. Given the times we feel lost. Given the times where we feel our best is not good enough. So… what is? I believe every human being has been though struggles of their own. We can’t compare our struggles, for its so diverse.
In an ideal world, if there were no suffering or struggles attached to life, I sometimes wonder if I’d need to try hard to get what I want and feel happy for it.
The scary thing about reality is I must endure, face my limits, overcome struggle and go on living whatever the weather. When something bad happens to me. I feel life as dramatic as it sounds, is punishing me. Blowing me a punch where I least expect it. I fall. And I struggle to get back up again. Can you relate?
Fear.Takes control over my mind. I lose sense of who I am. And i feel as though my vision is clouded to a fantasy I cannot make real to me. Under the big dark cloud hanging above my head…as cliche as as it may sound…but i cannot change the past. I cannot live with regret…for I believe the blessings I may not see around me completely define the beauty of living. It outshines all the doom and gloom. No matter how I hard it is to realise this. After a good cry….I guess perhaps one can.. And even though we can get scared at times, like I do now and again… the thought of knowing the nature of living is something so precious, as we are as well, however bitter it may seem at times, it is the true sweetness of humanity that can only make one feel strengthened. For we are interconnected spiritual beings seeking for something true to us..and that is something I am trying to discover myself.
Thank you.
Miranda meanders 